Breaking my Daughter's Heart

On Easter morning, I went in to Annabelle's room and we had our usual moring chat. I have been doing this since she was a small baby because I wanted to have some special time with her and could not let myself rock her to sleep at night so I chose to have morning time with her instead. This week, I sang my Good Morning song and opened the blinds and sat on her bed and was talking to her about Easter. I talked to her about Jesus and how He was hurt by people that were scared of what he wanted to do in their city and that he was killed by those people. I then went on to tell her that Jesus was buried and then 3 days later he was healed of all his cuts, bruises and boo boos and was raised from the dead.  I then told her that Jesus was taking care of things for us in Heaven with God and that we could trust Him to keeps things in control.  She was not saying much back so I asked her what she thought about Jesus.  She said that Jesus had a boo boo.  And that He was crying.  I said yes, he was crying because the people that were hurting her did not understand what they were doing and he asked God to forgive them.  She then looked at me with a serious face and said, "I dont have a band-aid".  I asked her what she needed a band aid for and she said, "For Jesus".  I told her that Jesus did not need a band aid because he was healed from all his boo boos and he was in Heaven all better now.  And I told her that because he had those boo boos, we could go to Heaven as well.  BUT, she just kept saying she wanted a band aid for Jesus.  I really felt bad for her at first because she was really sad she could not help Jesus.  I was trying to talk her out of her sadness, but later on I realized I needed to let her stay in that place.

Annabelle needs to have her heart broken over what happened to Jesus.  If her heart is not broken, she will not grasp the reality of what happened to our Savior for HER.

If her heart is not broken, she will not be able to recognize that she can not DO ANYTHING to "fix" Jesus boo boos or the state of her our soul.

My prayers for her have changed since that conversation.  I now pray that her life will guide her into moments of truth instead of ease.  I pray that Jesus will reveal the truth of who He is to her in full and not just in part.  I pray that she will understand the state of her heart and that she will desire God more than anything.